Revenge-The Desire To Break The Neck Of Something Fluffy Compels You

Okay, so in many of my posts I talk about kindness, love and happiness. But what I seem to be forgetting is that though I do like that stuff I'm still human and also to protect these things violence, anger and hate must step forth to defend the softness of Love, kindness and happiness.

But protecting something isn't the only reason a person does an act of violence, anger or hate. Me as a person I am mildly violent at times, have a lot to be angry about and don't hesitate to air that and though it be a strong word there are things I hate, though I wish there weren't I do hate many things and people I hate.

And I think, to be able to love wholly it is important to air what you hate freely, in order to promote honesty and to allow people in your life to know what to not expose you to if they can manage that. And also to get revenge on the things you hate (providing that they are morally unjust) is something I believe keeps balance in this world, and makes people aware that what they've done is wrong and you as a person don't just have walls that they can break down, but machine gun behind it, locked and loaded!

To give you a few examples of what and who I hate I decided that I would give a list of anything that springs to mind, this is only an exercise for me really in order to be able to release my anger and hate on a public platform,  but also as I am currently angry and I want to be honest, and harness my emotions even if it is offensive, I'm not bothered as that is part of me, I'm not a bitch because I won't whisper or mumble my anger I will air it with valid reasons. Never just inconsistent bullshit like "Oh she has too loud a voice, it does my head in!"

The Things I Hate

• Liars 
• War
• Grimy Politicians
• Thieves
• Murderers, rapists etc
• People who can judge another person but cannot take the time to judge themselves
• People who cannot forgive others
• Drugs (only when they ruin lives, done in moderation etc is fine by me)
• People who think themselves a station above another person, we are all equal
• Slyness
• Not getting revenge

The Importance Of Getting Revenge

I think it is extremely important that if someone does something that is extremely bad and effects you or your friends or families life drastically or had the intention to effect you or someone elses life drastically then revenge is an absolute must in order to make them aware that they won't get away with it!

REVENGE IS PUNISHMENT! Don't take the easy way out and say "Oh they'll get there come up sooner or later" because if they don't then they get away Scott free.

So the Morale to this Post is not to hate on things but commit revenge break someones fluffy little neck sometimes because throughout history to many people have gotten away with things! Revenge is sweet, and that wouldn't be such a popular saying if it was a lie...So sit down in The Light Shine Inn and for once use everything in you that's not right to make things in your past right, make sure you get repentance..

(This doesn't mean go out and be violent, it means be clever, Hate on a hater before they hate again)

Revenge-The Desire To Break The Neck Of Something Fluffy Compels You

Okay, so in many of my posts I talk about kindness, love and happiness. But what I seem to be forgetting is that though I do like that stuff I'm still human and also to protect these things violence, anger and hate must step forth to defend the softness of Love, kindness and happiness.

But protecting something isn't the only reason a person does an act of violence, anger or hate. Me as a person I am mildly violent at times, have a lot to be angry about and don't hesitate to air that and though it be a strong word there are things I hate, though I wish there weren't I do hate many things and people I hate.

And I think, to be able to love wholly it is important to air what you hate freely, in order to promote honesty and to allow people in your life to know what to not expose you to if they can manage that. And also to get revenge on the things you hate (providing that they are morally unjust) is something I believe keeps balance in this world, and makes people aware that what they've done is wrong and you as a person don't just have walls that they can break down, but machine gun behind it, locked and loaded!

To give you a few examples of what and who I hate I decided that I would give a list of anything that springs to mind, this is only an exercise for me really in order to be able to release my anger and hate on a public platform,  but also as I am currently angry and I want to be honest, and harness my emotions even if it is offensive, I'm not bothered as that is part of me, I'm not a bitch because I won't whisper or mumble my anger I will air it with valid reasons. Never just inconsistent bullshit like "Oh she has too loud a voice, it does my head in!"

The Things I Hate

• Liars 
• War
• Grimy Politicians
• Thieves
• Murderers, rapists etc
• People who can judge another person but cannot take the time to judge themselves
• People who cannot forgive others
• Drugs (only when they ruin lives, done in moderation etc is fine by me)
• People who think themselves a station above another person, we are all equal
• Slyness
• Not getting revenge

The Importance Of Getting Revenge

I think it is extremely important that if someone does something that is extremely bad and effects you or your friends or families life drastically or had the intention to effect you or someone elses life drastically then revenge is an absolute must in order to make them aware that they won't get away with it!

REVENGE IS PUNISHMENT! Don't take the easy way out and say "Oh they'll get there come up sooner or later" because if they don't then they get away Scott free.

So the Morale to this Post is not to hate on things but commit revenge break someones fluffy little neck sometimes because throughout history to many people have gotten away with things! Revenge is sweet, and that wouldn't be such a popular saying if it was a lie...So sit down in The Light Shine Inn and for once use everything in you that's not right to make things in your past right, make sure you get repentance..

(This doesn't mean go out and be violent, it means be clever, Hate on a hater before they hate again)

The Person I Wish I Could Forget

The Person I Wish I Could Forget

My brother, he's spent his whole life hurting me and other around me, all because of drugs. He was my first real experience with knowing the darker side of life, of learning the difference between the good and the bad..he was my first bad person should I say. I wish he wasn't, because I spent most of my life loving him, or wanting to be able to love him.
I know that he didn't want to do it, I know that he didn't enjoy causing so much pain, I know there are people out there who do enjoy causing other pain and that he is not one of them. But I want...need to believe that it's not his fault. When he wasn't hurting me the pain still echoed from the past, it was as though his eyes were a window into my childhood. He was the entity of my childhood negativity, the thought of him always provoked my deepest sadness from within.
He stole, he lied, he hurt and he could of died. But he didn't care about that, he didn't care that his life was precious, he didn't care that we could all see him ruining his life. He didn't care that he was destroying people around him. He didn't care that we all had to watch as my Mum worried and pined over losing her son, watching her being crushed over and over again.
He managed to blur the concept of family or me. I couldn't understand how I had such great brothers, and then this one brother confused my image of what a brother is, he tore away everything my life had been about every time he was seen sat outside my home waiting for my mum to let him in to let him pressure her and beg her for forgiveness that he would only ruin once again.
I often ask myself if things would be different if he hadn't started taking heroine, and now as I'm older I know that heroine can change a person, and control there actions, define their future. But what I also know is that he wasn't stupid, he knew the effects he knew the risks. And if it hadn't of been heroine, there would have been something else. He let the underworld drag him to his own hell, but he didn't stop there he couldn't wallow alone in his own hell he had to drag my family as far as he could with him, and that I hate him for.
He broke my heart so many times, he messed with my brain every time he walked or shuffled back into my life. Every time he came back I would hope that I would have my brother where a brother was missing, and every time he fed me lies, every time he used me, every time he was selfish, and every time I was broken.
Now if he were to walk back in I know I would still hope he was being truthful, but could never trust him again.
 Even though I'm not religious I pray for him just in case.
The thing is it's more than me and it's more than him, it's the more than anything it ever was, he has a child now, he shouldn't have a child but he does. She is beautiful, and she is my blood too, and I can't wipe her face from my memory, I fear i might never see her again. When I first held her I cried, because I knew (even though I didn't want to believe it) that I would probably never see her again. My own niece a child I can't help but love and t's her I wish I could forget not him, as he taught me to not trust everyone and to look for deciept. But I want to forget her, so that I don't miss her...
And just so she knows,
There's a place that only you can fill, just so you know, I loved then and I always will

The Person I Wish I Could Forget

The Person I Wish I Could Forget

My brother, he's spent his whole life hurting me and other around me, all because of drugs. He was my first real experience with knowing the darker side of life, of learning the difference between the good and the bad..he was my first bad person should I say. I wish he wasn't, because I spent most of my life loving him, or wanting to be able to love him.
I know that he didn't want to do it, I know that he didn't enjoy causing so much pain, I know there are people out there who do enjoy causing other pain and that he is not one of them. But I want...need to believe that it's not his fault. When he wasn't hurting me the pain still echoed from the past, it was as though his eyes were a window into my childhood. He was the entity of my childhood negativity, the thought of him always provoked my deepest sadness from within.
He stole, he lied, he hurt and he could of died. But he didn't care about that, he didn't care that his life was precious, he didn't care that we could all see him ruining his life. He didn't care that he was destroying people around him. He didn't care that we all had to watch as my Mum worried and pined over losing her son, watching her being crushed over and over again.
He managed to blur the concept of family or me. I couldn't understand how I had such great brothers, and then this one brother confused my image of what a brother is, he tore away everything my life had been about every time he was seen sat outside my home waiting for my mum to let him in to let him pressure her and beg her for forgiveness that he would only ruin once again.
I often ask myself if things would be different if he hadn't started taking heroine, and now as I'm older I know that heroine can change a person, and control there actions, define their future. But what I also know is that he wasn't stupid, he knew the effects he knew the risks. And if it hadn't of been heroine, there would have been something else. He let the underworld drag him to his own hell, but he didn't stop there he couldn't wallow alone in his own hell he had to drag my family as far as he could with him, and that I hate him for.
He broke my heart so many times, he messed with my brain every time he walked or shuffled back into my life. Every time he came back I would hope that I would have my brother where a brother was missing, and every time he fed me lies, every time he used me, every time he was selfish, and every time I was broken.
Now if he were to walk back in I know I would still hope he was being truthful, but could never trust him again.
 Even though I'm not religious I pray for him just in case.
The thing is it's more than me and it's more than him, it's the more than anything it ever was, he has a child now, he shouldn't have a child but he does. She is beautiful, and she is my blood too, and I can't wipe her face from my memory, I fear i might never see her again. When I first held her I cried, because I knew (even though I didn't want to believe it) that I would probably never see her again. My own niece a child I can't help but love and t's her I wish I could forget not him, as he taught me to not trust everyone and to look for deciept. But I want to forget her, so that I don't miss her...
And just so she knows,
There's a place that only you can fill, just so you know, I loved then and I always will